I think I've finally hit the goldmine in life, I'm finding myself and coming up from the fog of new motherhood. Just a few weeks before turning 30 I was determined to be a better me. I wanted to take out time to become more in tune with myself and to unearth all my new desires for life.
As a mom of twins there is hardly any time to be you and trust me being their mother is all I could have wanted. There is no other love like the one I experiencing now. I'm a very attached parent and a super crunchy mama. So that means most if not all of my time is focused on my littlest loves. It wasn't until recently that someone asked me what I liked to do and I realized I was so out of touch with what "I" wanted, liked, or needed. I really don't know who I am anymore besides Chauncey and Oliver's mommy.
In January I decided it was time to find myself again. That mission started with the physical, as I was not pleased with my appearance. I've grown my locs for 8 years and decided cut them off. They were no longer healthy and just hid the hair issues I had underneath. Now with them gone I am obligated to care for my hair and to make sure I am eating and drinking properly to make sure it grows back full.
I also began to drink more water because my skin looked dull and lifeless. My face was looking less full and almost wrinkled. In just a few weeks I noticed huge differences where my skin and nails were concerned. I even started attending Zumba and Pilates in the same time frame. My husband constantly tells me how beautiful I am but I want to be pleased with what I see in the mirror and I know that's going to take time.
For my mental and spiritual I've started reading again. Both my bible and a few fiction books. It's been so nice to escape in a book. I am also planning to take a social media hiatus after Easter so that I can regain focus on my own creativity where blogging and art are concerned and my biggest goal of helping women breastfeed.
Honestly this 30th Birthday has done wonders for self actualization. I feel like I'm pleased with the direction I'm headed in and I'm excited to see the fruits I'll be bearing after all this cultivating. God has really opened my eyes to learn a lot more about myself and I love it. My husband and I are pending a big move and God has reminded me to live right here in the present making memories with friends, family and for myself. I am seizing all opportunities until he tells me there is something better and more important to do.
So far this is 30 and I love it.