One of a kind. (GIVEAWAY)

25 July 2016


It's been a year since we sold our home and rented a condo. Our plans were to be unattached should a transfer to a more desirable location come our way. 

We found a quaint but tiny condo and quickly moved into the second unit on the bottom floor of a tropical community. For the most part it was quiet and our move had gone unnoticed. However a few nights after living in our new place we put our 7 month old twins to bed, shortly after someone knocked on the door. I started to get upset that someone was knocking on our door this late, mainly because the boys bedroom window was right next to the front door. I was afraid that they would be awaken and I wouldn't get that shower I desperately needed. Thankfully my husband was home that night and he ran to the door to answer it.

There was a slightly round guy there. He introduced himself as Nicholas. He told us that he realized we moved in but it was always too late to come by but he figured it was now or never. He came with a cooler full of fish as a welcome to the neighborhood. I felt horrible after we closed the door, as I hadn't expected such kindness. Nicholas continued to bring us freshly caught him fish and vegetables each week until our freezer was too full. 

In the mornings I often walked the babies and would catch him before he went to work. We chatted a bit and he told me stories that always made me laugh. He was quite the character. During one of the stories he told me he could let anything in life stress him because he had a bad heart. Each day we chatted a bit and had laughs. He was by far the most interesting and funny neighbor I've ever had. 

On July 2, the day of our wedding anniversary my husband and I went to celebrate while my mom and her husband stayed with our babies. When we got back home my mom hit me with the news that Nicolas had been rushed off to the hospital while we were away. His wife has never really talked to us in the time that we live here so when I knocked on the door she never answered and she always avoided me any time she could. I finally had the chance to see her a few days later and she told me he was okay. I was glad to hear he was fine.

This week I saw his car had come back home and was excited to talk to him in the morning. Upon taking out the trash I ran into his wife who told me Nicholas had died and they already had his funeral. I was devastated and it really seems like a dream. Each time I open my freezer I look at all the fish he had given to us. I also feel sorry for the stray cat that he fed every day. It's amazing how in one year he made an impact on my life. His friendship challenged me to be more outgoing, carefree, and friendly. I'm really going to miss seeing him each morning and I wish I had taken more time to show him how much I cared. Nicolas has inspired me, I hope that his friendly upbeat personality can live on through me each and every day.

In memory of my sweet friend Nicholas I am giving away a $25 dollar target gift card. Comment below and tell me about someone who inspires you to live more authentically. Winner will be randomly selected and announced on Friday. 

If you are interested in hearing more about people who defy the odds of life and inspire Check out Season 2 of BORN THIS WAY which premieres Tuesday, July 26 on A&E Network


Freedom

04 July 2016



On this Fourth of July only my body is free, every other part of me feels lost. There aren't enough hours in the day, I don't have enough time to complete task, communicated with friends, eat right, sleep, cook, clean - anything. I have been wrecking my brain to try and figure out why I've been feeling so overwhelmed and so lost. 

The answer?

I am further away from God our father than I have been many years. I feel as if I am in a tailspin, I am moody and often times I cannot think clearly. I am controlled by my to do list and alarms that I have set to keep my life on check. In the same token my spirit is off track and starving - for the bread of life. I know what needs to be done, yet I haven't pulled myself away to do it.

I honestly don't feel like I am living at all outside of moments with my sons. After they go to bed or naps I operate on autopilot. Eat, Drink, Watch television, check social media, text and work shopping list and to do list. I know my source and I know what sustains me yet I continue to live in this life that suffocates my soul.

I've set a goal, I am going to take some time away to reconnect to find myself and to search for that beautiful freedom that I once possessed. At the close of this week I am going to disconnect from media so that I can run into the bosom of the one who longs to love me and fill me, the one who promises me rest, just like I give to my boys. I want to be whole for myself, my husband and my boys. Ive always known that the best thing for them to witness is my relationship with God. I know for a fact that children learn by example.

Please pray for me, that the time would be beautiful, fruitful, and plentiful. Above all please pray that I might once again possess a Mary heart, in this Martha world.

38 As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. 40 But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”41 But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! 42 There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”

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