After some minor confusion at the doctors office we discovered that the baby that the doctor originally thought was baby A is actually my sweet baby B. Baby A would be the baby that's closest to the cervix and baby B is the one that's furthest away. At my last appointment I thought to mention it to the technician but I figured she was just getting baby A's picture from different angles because she had the wand high on my belly.
Other than not being able to clearly identify if the piece is missing on the brain, baby B is perfectly healthy. S/he is growing has a perfect four chamber heart and all other working organs. This baby is also the most active and can constantly be felt.
My doctor was rushing me to have all these test done. One of them failed due to insufficient fetal DNA in my blood so I have to retake it. She also wants me to do an MRI to take a better look at the baby. After talking it over my husband and I decided that we won't do further testing until our babies have grown larger and when we are comfortable. Our doctor has been trying to let all the results come in before my twenty weeks so we could have an option to terminate the pregnancy if something is seriously wrong.
Because of your prayers and my faith in God I had peace even after the appointment. Our babies mean the world to us and are God's promise to us. The fact that the option is even hanging over our heads seriously offends us. Especially as I have been open with my doctors about how we got here. I'm not trying to make anyone else feel bad about choices they have made or would make in a worst case scenario. I'm usually never one to post about controversial topics but abortion goes against my foundation of beliefs. I could never harm my baby intentionally when I know God created his or her life for a reason. The very fact that I am pregnant today was because God lead me into a fast to end abortion. Also with out clear diagnosis even if my mind were open to the possibility it's not a choice I could make without being sure. In which case there is never any surety until the baby is born.
We've made it clear that we won't be doing anything invasive to disturb the home of the babies. We will continue our pregnancy with confident hope that God in his infinite power and might will heal our baby should anything really need to be healed.
Today I am pregnant. Our babies are alive and growing. They have promise over their lives and we are giving them every benefit to fulfill it. I ask that you continue to pray for us and our babies. That God would continue his workmanship and that they would be whole. Thank you for your prayers so far they mean so much to us!