Spilling the Beans

30 April 2014

For many years I have planned how I would spill the beans to my husband and to my family when I found out that we were expecting. During those moments of planning to announce a pregnancy I never imagined we would have such difficulty getting pregnant. The thoughts of announcing a pregnancy seemed to grow further and further away from being a reality.

If you know someone who has or if you have done infertility treatments yourself you know that the element of surprise is lost in the world of infertility. When you begin your treatments you expect the news of pregnancy in weeks, days, or months to come. You expect that after spending thousands of dollars that on beta test day you will indeed receive a positive result. For several years I got negatives or never even made it to my beta day to test for pregnancy.

This time I was full of hope. I didn't buy a single pregnancy test because I didn't want to fall into temptation and test for pregnancy at home. My beta test day was scheduled for 9 days after our embryo transfer. As days went on I struggled to remain hopeful because I didn't feel the pregnant that I expected. Each day I expected that I would start my menstrual cycle and all hope would be lost. To my surprise I made it to beta day for the first time ever, it was Wednesday April 16th. I had my blood drawn at around 5:45am. I was already in a bad mood because I had to be stabbed twice. The first time there was a tube malfunction and the second time the phlebotomist finally found my vein after probing for it with the needle. While she was searching for my vein I remembered what she told me the first time she drew my blood in January, she said your veins are not good now but when you get pregnant they are going to fill up and be easy to find. Surely I was not pregnant because she probed and took forever to find a decent vein. I left feeling only a tiny bit hopeful - when I got in the car I prayed to God.  I said I believe Daddy, but help me in my unbelief. 

Four hours later my phone rang, it was my nurse calling to give me the results. My chest tightened and my heart pounded in my chest - I decided that I would not answer the phone. I didn't know how I would reacted and I needed to have some control. So I waited until I heard the voicemail notification chime on my phone and asked God to give me strength before listening to it. My heart was in my throat at this point. I lifted the phone to my ear after pressing play, I could hardly hear her greeting because my heart was beating so loudly. The only word I did hear was "Congratulations!". I dropped to my knees and started to sob, I cried out thank you God thank you God while rolling on the floor. I laid there for a while in disbelief, while drying my tears I listened to the message again. I couldn't believe it, I was pregnant

While it didn't happen the way I had hoped I was so grateful, so thrilled, just delighted to have life growing inside of me. I picked up the phone and dialed my husband, the phone rang once and then I hung up. The opportunity to surprise him with the news was staring me right in the face. I needed to get the news out so I texted a friend who I knew would be awake to share in the excitement. I really wanted to talk to my FET cycle buddies but they are in another time zone so I had to wait a few more hours to share the news with them. I talked with my friend and she asked if I had told my husband and I said no that I wanted to surprise him. She helped me with a few ideas and I ventured out to the store to set the plan in motion. My hubby called me several times throughout the day to see if the doctor’s office had called me. I told him no. Nothing wrong with a little white lie, right? 

Fast forward to when I came home, to my surprise he was already at home waiting on me. I pretended to be grumpy and stormed into the restroom to use the pregnancy test. Immediately two strong lines showed up and it was like magic. I could not believe my eyes. I capped the test and shoved it into the pharmacy bag with the other items I had for my husband. I sat on the couch and called him over, he came over looking puzzled - probably thinking that I had bad news. I gave hime the pharmacy bag and he tried to peep in. I said no just open it. So he did, and a huge grin crept over his face. He was speechless. Then he said he knew it. I was thrilled to have had the chance to surprise him like I had always dreamed of.

At that time we didn't know we were expecting twins but I purchased two onesies just in case we needed them. Turns out we did.

Oh Baby!

26 April 2014

If you follow me on Instagram you were made privy to this news last night.


We are bursting with excitement and thrilled to announce that not one but two Baby FixIts will be joining our family in December! I'm so sorry for the delay but we had to get the news out to our families first since some of them follow me here. Thank you all for your prayers, texts, emails, and just overall love and support. We feel abundantly blessed and our faces hurt from smiling for 2 weeks! 

God has answered our prayers and we are thrilled to meet the little people he is giving to us. Please continue to keep us in your prayers as it's still very early and we have a long way to go. We are confident God will provide and keep these babies safe until it's their time to enter the world. 

To God be the glory for every step we've taken to get to this point. He is the author of life and he's writing a beautiful story for us. The next chapter of our life includes two new characters, and we couldn't be happier.


22 April 2014

Happy Earth Day Loves.

I can hardly believe that one of my favorite days has almost slipped past me. I love celebrating the earth and I love getting out to enjoy the beauty of this day.

Unfortunately as I type this I am sitting in my Ikea robe with a bonnet on my head and slippers on my feet. Im as slow as a slug and have no plans for Earth Day 2014. Each year I do make a pledge to be greener and you can see my pledge from last year here.

This year I've only taken a few steps to be greener, but a few steps is all it takes right?

  • We no longer get receipts at ATMs, Starbucks, or any other stores that offer email receipts.
  • I no longer use wax paper when baking, received silpat mats for my birthday this year. I am so excited to make my favorite pastime more green.
  • I faithfully use my own glass coffee cup no matter where I go - doctors office, starbucks, etc. It's tiny and fits right in my purse.

Here are a few ways you can be greener:

Bring your own grocery bags to the store.

Go paperless on your bills.

By towels instead of paper towels to dry your hands.

Reuse glass jars for storage or tupperware.

Make your own toiletries and laundry soap. Pinterest has many recipes for this.

By less processed and pre packaged food - it saves the earth and it's better for you.


20 April 2014


Hi Folks.

Jesus is Risen. He died, went to Hades to conquer death, and rose. He did all this so that death could have no hold over us. He conquered that grave so that even when we die we can live again.

I am awe of His ultimate act of love.

I hope you all are enjoying your day with family and remembering the one who died so you could live.

Happy Easter.


10 April 2014

Our two embryos, hatching before transfer.

This is just something I shared on my Instagram a few days ago with a close up of our sweet little embabies.

First of all I want to thank all of you for your prayers and kind comments. Yesterday's #FET went very well, I was super emotional on the way home yesterday and had no words to say except babies are on board. God's glory makes me speechless. Seriously my husband and I have waited for this day for many years. After so many failed treatments and shame for not being able to start a family on our own we clung to God and let him take the wheel. It's been 4 years since that happened. God's timing is one of those things that you don't understand until you look back on it. So many things had to happen in our life and in our faith before we could get to this point. As we grew in Him he showed us that he would have the glory for the babies that we would have. I know the doctors helped but we know God is the first Reproductive Endocrinologist. He's been picking the best embryos since the beginning of time. Which is why we are all here. God gets all the glory from beginning to end because nothing was of our own doing. We had amazing doctors who told us to pray about decisions and nurses who were also God fearing! We also received $30k of treatments for a fraction of the cost at a clinic that's highly ranked and touted for it's lab/doctors all over the country. And yesterday we put back two perfectly graded hatching embabies! If that's not God I don't know what is! Please keep us in your prayers and know that I am praying for each of you as well!

Thank you all for your support its been truly amazing. I haven't been doing anything except baking these little babies. It'll be another week or so before I can have an official update, but for now I am PUPP pregnant until proven pregnant!!

a BIG day

07 April 2014

Welp, it's finally here. The day that we have dreamed of for months - our embryo transfer. I am over come with joy! The sheer fact that we made it this far and have babies waiting for us is already an absolute miracle. Honestly God has displayed so much of His glory in this process and we aren't pregnant, yet! I am overwhelmed by the outpouring of love, support, and prayers we have received on this journey. Thank you.

A little after noon today, we will get the call that we can proceed to the clinic to pick up our sweet babies. If you are unfamiliar with the process they have to call us after the babies have thawed since they were cryopreserved for exactly one month today. It's hard to believe that all this has happened since we started this journey on January 20th.

Since starting this journey we have had:

15 Ultrasounds
14 Blood Draws
21 Injections of 4 different medicines
99 Pills, not including Prenatal Vitamins
1 Endometrial Biopsy
2 Suppositories
1 Egg Retrieval

and finally today

1 DET (Double Embryo Transfer).

I cannot wait to share the news of pregnancy with you all. Please continue to keep us lifted in your prayers. We believe that God has declared that our time to be parents is here. Once we do have a positive pregnancy test I will share the news with family first and then announce here on the blog and on Instagram.

If you would like to see a picture of the embryos please follow me on Instagram if you aren't already.


04 April 2014

Thank you God for Jesus, 65 degree weather, sunshine, love, church, family and beautiful flowers. So many things are springing to life both within me and around me. I am entirely grateful. I am looking forward to new life and great purpose being revealed this spring, until that happens I am soaking in all the beauty of spring around me.

Your turn: What are you most looking forward to this spring?

This Friday I am linking up with my beautiful friend Aimee from Click.Pray.Create to bring you Find Beauty Friday. The purpose of this linkup up is to find the beauty in your life, capture it, and share it with others. Share your beauty by linking up below.

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