Homesick?!

03 February 2014


Last week I found myself feeling overwhelmed on the inside and underwhelmed in my apartment. I had nothing to write about, nothing to talk about, I felt like I was emotionally stunted.

I woke up at 6:30 am every single day and began to pray in a semi conscious state. It was quite unusual and I couldn't understand what was going on. I had quiet time, ate breakfast, journaled, ate lunch, watched a little tv, ate dinner, took a shower, prayed and headed to bed.

I repeated these steps every single day until it dawned on me, I was homesick.

I know your are probably thinking aren't you home? Haven't you been there for a while? Shouldn't you be over feeling homesick? 

The answer to all those questions is a resounding YES! Yes, NYC is my physical home. Yes we've been here for a while. Yes, I thought I was over feeling homesick - I didn't know it could come back.

I also believe that home is where the heart is. My heart of course knows it belongs here with my husband but I think it's decided to stay in Florida. After all who could blame it? There weather is warmer, the food is hearty, and the laughs are plenty.

When I realized that I was feeling a little blue. I began to think of ways I could move beyond this funk and fall back in love with this city, this weather, and my apartment again.

Here's what I came up with.

1. Get out of the house. I hadn't left my apartment in a few days in preparation for up coming work.

2. Don't Just Go to church, fellowship. I always find joy, renewal, and peace when I attend regular church service or small group meetings. My small group has started meeting again for the new year I am excited to begin our new study next week. I committed to not just running out when service or group is over but sticking around again to fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ. After our last group meeting a sweet friend invited me to lunch I usually say no but this time I said yes and it was just what I needed.

3. Spruce up the place. Before leaving to Florida my husband and I deep cleaned our apartment so there wasn't much to do when we came back. I decided to take a little trip to my favorite place, Ikea. I picked up a few succulents and new pillows to spruce up the place.

4. Highlight the Good. I journaled about all the blessings that God has given since my husband and I left Florida and all the ones that we are expecting. I wrote about the people I met and the places I had gone since living in this bustling place. It was a good reminder of the many things I had to be grateful for.

5. Bake. I haven't baked a single thing since being in Florida. Baking is my therapy. I have a some new recipes up my sleeve and I can't wait to try them out and share them with you all.

6. Worship. Nothing makes a house a home like a good Holy Ghost party. This week I blasted my favorite songs and just worshiped God for all that he's done and continues to do for me.

7. Surrender. Not only is that my word for the year but it's exactly what I needed to do in these moments where I am feeling emotionally and spiritually weary. My heart knows that we are beginning a new chapter in our life and I am nervous about being so far from our support system of family and friends. I was reminded during my quiet time to surrender those feelings and myself completely to God - because he would be all that we needed.

I am now feeling restored and excited for the week ahead. Glad to be cured of the latest bout of homesickness.

Your Turn: Have you ever been homesick? How did you cure it? Have you ever moved away from your support system? If so how did you deal?




12 comments:

  1. Homesick is hard. Especially when the guilt comes in... the guilt of knowing in your head you "should" be happy and whole with your husband, but in reality it just is sad being away from everything you know. We only moved about an hour and a half away from home, which is nowhere near the same thing as you, but none the less, it was hard! And it didn't let up until we really found community in a church home. I don't really have advice, other than just to try to communicate your feelings well with your hubs, so he knows that it's not him and the home he has provided, it's just learning to leave the home you've always known. And it's a process... that one day you'll look back on and be thankful for. Promise! God is using this for something!

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  2. awww yes I have felt homesick lots when I moved TO Florida 8 years ago. I lived in a small town called Chiefland (just outside of Gainesville) from the age of 6 to 15. Then my family moved to Southern Illinois because that is where my family lives and my parents were born and raised. Right after college graduation, I moved to Gainesville because my soon to be hubby (who was my 6th grade boyfriend) was going to UF. I lived in Gainesville for almost four years before we decided to move back to IL so I could be closer to my family. During that 4 years, I enjoyed being back in FL but I just missed my family. So I totally get it.

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  3. So sorry to hear this, but sounds like you came up with great ideas!! I love the fellowship one. Nothing better then getting together with other Jesus-followers to do life with! xoxo

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  4. I see someone is creative in what they do to get out of a funk! Hey sis!! Long time not talk or type! HA!

    After the snow storm here in Atlanta, we were stuck in the house for 2-3 days. We had cabin fever so bad! Glad to be back at work so I can be productive. Thanks for the list of things you did...I can do some of those things for the next two weeks while I'm in waiting.

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  5. I've never lived particularly far from home so I can't say I have ever experienced true homesick, but we have gone on long vacation where I just long for my house and my normal (and my Swish!) Thinking of you and glad you developed a way to pull out of your homesickness.

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  6. I'm so sorry you're feeling so homesick! That's so rough! Your plan for defeating it sounds wonderful! Do you think you'll ever move back to Florida?

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  7. Sorry you are feeling homesick. I like your plan. Have you thought about signing up for some type of exercise class? That can help too when you're feeling down.

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  8. Sorry to hear you are homesick...but love the ideas for curing it. Simple things bring joy. :)

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  9. I love this list! At this time of year I always get affected by the cold weather and a few things I've found that help me are: getting out, taking pictures, listening to music, making sure I do my devotions every day . . .

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  10. This is a wonderful list! I'm a Texan living in Chicago, a recent move about six months ago. It's been one heck of a ride, and while my parents, brothers, and grandparents are with me, I miss the comfort of what Texas was to me. I suppose living your entire life in one place will do that to you. I've made it a point to be grateful this year. God has given me a lot of blessings in life, and I know I should trust him in where he is leading me. :)

    Wishing a beautiful day!

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  11. No, not really...but I live across the street from the only other home I've lived in. lol I love the "getting out of the funk" plan that you devised. And so glad that it's been working. Although I may not know true homesickness (is that really a word?) I think this type of plan will work for many times when a person feels down. Thanks for sharing!

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